Sunday, March 18, 2007
- 3:24 AM
Yes... Aunt lay is right.. baby boy..if i cant get over u myself.. no one can and will..I have to learn to cope..Its time to leave the past behind... I love u ..
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
- 4:36 PM
Yesterday was Rockie's one month death anniverary...Time flies.. but the pain has not faded.. its still a broken heart...and i still dont understand why God planned his life this way.. A good and obedient dog dont deserve to die this way...God hasnt help him in anyway except a torturous sickness...
Where is he now? One month has passed and nothing changed.. my tears shower every night... Is this painful feeling happening for life? I suddenly feel that i couldnt live without him..Whenever i return home.. i will always sit beside his urn and speak to him... I am jus getting nuts without him.. How i wish someone can understand mi...
People says... Once bitten twice shy.. I am not going to have any kid of my own.. cos i hate these ill fates coming upon them...I am too afraid of all these pain and torture they leave behind...
I just cant get over it! The pain is killing me slowly...
*Rest In Peace* I will love you.. till my dying day..
Thursday, February 01, 2007
- 10:08 PM
Where is Rockie? Why did he leave me?
I am alone... and i am there feelin that he is around mi..
Why am i always deceiving myself? I am so stupid.. Why cant i just let him go? Why his innocent eyes keep projecting in my mind..
I hate myself for letting him go.. i should allow him to go through the chemotherapy.. and now he might still be around me..
The feeling is not wat words can decribe.. many people might not understand.. and say 'its jus a dog'.. I guess even my bf dont understand...but its a needle in my heart.. it must be there.. if not i might bleed to death frm the open wound..
The story jus goes.. a mom has lost her kid.. and tt's the feeling..understand? haizzzz...
My heart is dead.. everything else is an image.. whats love? *Rest in peace*
Sunday, January 28, 2007
- 11:47 PM
Yesterday was a post birthday celebration for Aunty Lay at Movida St James. Yes... Alan, Aunty Pang, Pheng, Bev, Sean was there. Haha treated AUnty Lay a FLAMING LAMBORGHINI! woohoo HOT.. tt got her to the dance floor dancing n wobbling.. hha.. of course.. as usual.. i got myself partially drunk and high so as to dance properly.. Poor Alan, having a stomach flu but still came down with mi.. Y? Probably afraid i get drunk n fall on the floor.. Stupid mi right? Must learn how not to drink when clubbing..
I guess i have to face the fact tt my boyfriend is 24 yrs old.. a mature guy.. so i will not hope too much, wishing wat sean is giving bev ( a bed of roses(realli her whole bed).. rings..presents.. sweet talks).. Yes.. mature guys are just practical.. So i have to go with the flow.. and not descend him off his ageing ladder? Haha..
Rockie gave mi 4 numbers.. 2441.. i duNo y .. but thn he came into my dreams...i saw him..as usual.. always messing up his own hair when he is so particular abt mi combing his hair and looking handsome.. ARGGh.. he needs to learn to take care of himself now.. Miss him loads..
Thursday, January 25, 2007
- 9:26 PM
Is this the best you could've cared for?
~nOn-eXistence~
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
- 11:19 PM
Its been 2 weeks since Rockie has passed away...I am trying so hard not to think tt much.. But i have tt feeling ... a feeling tt rockie is still by my side.. although he has passed away.. his soul is still lingering around me...
I regret not taking care of him well enough but it is too late... Last time, i always take his presence for granted and now.. its too late to regret... haiz...How can i forget everything and keep memories jus by my side...
Believe me.. I am realli trying my best to make myself happy again..and i will.. one day..
Sunday, January 14, 2007
- 11:23 PM
After a miserable week.. Its time to pamper myself...
On Saturday, went out with alan auntie lay, pang and my family..heez..I bought myself a $280 Bang & Olufsen earphone for my Mp3..erm..bought AX tshirt... hehe.. thn had Indo dinner with them all.. At 9pm, went to The Balcony with Aunty Lay.. sat there hearing Dada crapz.. and enjoyed their House Wine..
Today Sunday, went to Vivo for a GoldClass movie... shiok..thn went to Arab Street for dinner and Shisha... cool.. so Shisha is so much better thn smoking.. haha... Strawberry. Oooo...
- 11:23 PM
After a miserable week.. Its time to pamper myslef...
On Saturday, went out with alan auntie lay, pang and my family..heez..I bought myself a $280 Bang & Olufsen earphone for my Mp3..erm..bought AX tshirt... hehe.. thn had Indo dinner with them all.. At 9pm, went to The Balcony with Aunty Lay.. sat there hearing Dada crapz.. and enjoyed their House Wine..
Today Sunday, went to Vivo for a GoldClass movie... shiok..thn went to Arab Street for dinner and Shisha... cool.. so Shisha is so much better thn smoking.. haha... Strawberry. Oooo...
about myself
Name: ReNa Lim
Age: 18
Birthday: 31st Aug 88
School: Ngee Ann Poly (Business Studies)
Love: Golf, Composing, Piano, Guitar
Wishes: More Lollipops
Guitars
Strawberries everyday
Car license
Play well in golf
iPod Nano
Car
Make more frens
Someone who can protect mi!